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basically....

2006-05-08T21:19:08Z

NEEDLE TO THE THROAT

2005-12-14T01:07:51Z

well its final week and im putting of typing my 3rd paper today and then editing another music deal, to ask a question.

should i pierce the back of my neck!!

i cant decide if i want it or not. bantz said no because i could push out but i talked to the lady at the place and she says that shes done about 10 people and none pushed out. plus u can bend the bar like a staple so that it ancorhs better. soo yea idk i want it but idk.
what else, oh im single now, idk how i feel about this, but who knows anything these days. i saw against me the other day it was neat. i saw a bunch of pros chillen at the bar from the FBM team so i talked to them. and i have a new mission in life to hae sex with the lead singer of the band the epoxies. they are so bad but somthing about her mesmorized me. hahahaha ill be home on friday i cant wait to see everyone. i have a ton of work to do for PUNKROCKVIDS.com go there im helping make music videos for some neat bands like DROPKICK MURPHYS, Catch 22 and Chiodos, with this kid marcosio its cool
yea idk im beat with school and i have to edit now so im out peace peace.-xo

i have no life

2005-12-07T16:01:00Z

List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're any good, they must be songs you are presently enjoying. Post these instructions in your Live Journal along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to.

1] the entire against me! crime ep from 1999
2] i saw the sun over I-95 explode-as the sun sets
3] 11:59 anwsering the call-black cross
4] hurrican-bob dylan
5] same shade as concrete-circle takes the square
6] art is hard-cursive
7] i against i-jedi mind tricks

I've been running miles, davis

2005-11-22T23:56:49Z

OMG OMG OMG OM GOMGOKMGOMGOMGOMGMOGMOMGOGOMGMOMOGOMGOMGMOMOGMOGOMGOMGMOGMOGOMGOMGOMMOGOMGOMGMOGMOGMOGMOMOGMOGOMGMOGMOOMGMOMGOOMGOMGOMGOMOGOGOMGOMOGOMGOMGOMOGMOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGGOMGOJMGOMOGOMGOGMGOMGOOGMOMGOMGGOMGMGMOGOGOMGOMMOGOGOMGMOGMOOMGMOGMOGOMGOMGOMGMOOMGMOMOGOMGOMGMO

Im coming home tommrow and this is amazing....... darek and others are on there way now to spend the night with me.. good times, all week will be fun seeing all my freinds and riding wit like bill and chaz and shit wow so much to do in such little time.

oh and there will be a party or gathering at my house saturday call and it will be fun times-xo

Surgery with a chainsaw

2005-10-31T15:24:56Z

So yes its been a lil while, but i have so much stuff that has happened. so i will summarize.
-finaly started to film and edit skate videos and shit
-kristin came and visted me
-got a hotel room with a fucking jacuzzi
-holloween parties=awsome
-im scared of class selection
-i love my freinds here
-i miss my freinds from home
-this school is kinda like highschool
-i had to save terrances life on friday night (hahaha)
thats all well i had to preform some surgery on my index finger, i had a pretty big blood blister that ripped off on my finger leaving it with a huge nasty hunk of shitty ass skin hanging off so i had to fix that shit.
instructions on how to fix a finger
-one pair of scissors
-one tube of superglue
-one tube of neospoirne
-one knife
-one band aid
-lots of nakines to clean up your mess ups
cut dead skin off, then wash, take knife and file skin on sides even wit the gash, clean blood off, now mix superglue and neosporine together and apply. cover and now ur done. hahahaa it worked for me.
well im out to do somthing. -xo

Listen, the mighty Ear is hear

2005-10-13T20:43:11Z

Wow, all i can say is about last weekend. i never had so much fun im my life. friday night i went home and that was the best part i got to see my dog after her surgery, btw shes doing much better shes actually more perky now and happy. i didnt stay home for long 20 mins later i was at linden on my way to NYC. i got to Fordom University and after alot of screaming and a over done reuniting with my best girlfriend katie. the rest of the night was amazing going to bars and other such things. i wasted about 70 bucks that night that shit was expensive. the next day i was on my way to see kristian and my sister. i stayed wit kristian and wow that was another amazing night. she got me a few amazing gifts. we went out and hung out i passed out and such it was nice. then the next day and her went out and took pics all over the place. amazing blurr pics i hope got. we then were almost killed by the hells angles who just happened to cross our path while taking pics. then i got home that night and a bunch of kids came with me to a huka bar, then to my house around 1030 partied to like 430 everyone started to leave so me and darek went to white dimond, and figured out we had to do somthing crazy.......so i was like lets go to the beach. so we did. i got there and called everyone. it was sssssoooooooooooooooo godly. i got home around 7 i walked in as my dad walked out to work. the next night i went out the skatepark wit bill and brendon macann it was awsome i missed that kid. the next day i went to school and it was fun to see everyone again.
yea what else im going to be stealing my bike soon cuz i suck at riding and it sucks-xo
"one does not keep the carton after one has smoked the last ciggerette...." think about it Dr. Luaghlin

fucking spoons and shit

2005-10-06T02:26:28Z

So as i sit here in bobie lynns room, at her computer with bill and erin and jess a few minor things race throgh my subconisonce...
-Alex grey is fucking amazing artist
-Robert frank ownes ur face at photography
-14 days till next pirate party
-i have a lot of homework
-oh yea I COME HOME FRIDAY!!!!!!
well friday then i that night i go to fordom college to see people then saturday i come home and me andjustin goto UCONN to see Kristin andmy sister then i come back sunday and that night marie claire sleeps over then monday im free and tuesday im free too well im going to go ride and take pictures fo my photo classsssssssssss. anyoe care to join then message me i guess or somthing call thats prob better.-xo

I'm sorry, so sorry, for not making sense I have been shot in the left side of my chest The dust in
the air, that irritates my eyes, floats in the light that beams from the hole in my chest

Were all angels......

2005-10-02T19:56:09Z

Wow last night was.... well unexplainable. it was quiet shitty to start with me and bill chillen and watching a bunch of the Steve-o videos they are queit amazing. PCP Saved my Life has o be the funniest shit ever. then a bunch drunkard girls stumbled in and i hate drunk girls with a upmost passion when they cant handle it, its like why would u do that to your self then cry about how ur sick. i mean im good freinds wit the girls but common it was just annoying, because i was in a shitty mood and people just give aditude when there drunkand i hate that shit, fuck it wat ever i then got a call from my big bro to come to the party at his hieght. wow my night got so much better when i got to see a bunch of shitty freshman get amde fun of. some kid fell and completly destroyed the toliet liek it wasnt there anymore it shatterd and water was shooting into the air. hahaha then some 35 year old women showed up so i felt it my job to hit on them and so i did. but be compeltey honest i thought they were just older looking senoirs. lil did i know they were senoirs in other ways ahahah. then it was off to club mcshea.. taht was also a very intersting time due to the fact that mulitple people came up to me and kissed me because i was inf the pirate. This is due to the crazy pirate parties i have had in my room. then at 4 or so i called kristina and fell asleep on the phone wit her wat a wonderful way to end a shitty but then grand night.
and Amber amde it through her surgery. they removed her tomur and eye stuff now shes home an resting i miss her so much i wanna see her so bad. well yea what else theres nothing more bye.
-xo
p.s. listen to Flight of the wounded locust by the locust it will change ur life, i mean it.

i like cookies

2005-09-28T23:06:20Z

i just got back from the Desales vs delware valley college soccor game, the only reason i really went is because justine was playing and i havent seen here in so fucking long. i went to the game game adn didnt relize how long those things really are. this game has 2, 45 minute halfs then just because they culd decide to go into double over time.... i was like fuck this and went to sleep after shooting 16 or so pictures of slide film. they should come out good the lighting was buetiful. back on topic though, it was amazing to see her but whne i had to say good bye it made me so sad.... i miss home and everyone pray Lady Amber Noel Infantino is going into surgery, this is my dog for u who dont know.... please keep her in ur prays..-xo

Ten minutes to downtown, is ten minutes too far

2005-09-23T00:53:29Z

Well to say that i have updated in a while would be a bit of a understatment but anyway, im in college now and its the best thing ever im not going to lie. Shit here has been the most amazing thing that ever happened to me. All i do is get up get food go to amazing classes then party at night with the coolest kids. I said it before i left "Im never coming home." and i ment it. I have relized that home was just filled with stupid bullshit from stupid people that jsut need to grow up but fuck it. to each there own. It is so peaceful here all it is 400 acres of rolling green hills and corn feilds. it sounds really boring and all but when u see a full moon here its so buetiful or when u stay up all night wit the right kids just talking about nothing and watch the sun come up, theres nothing to explain it. plus i get to play with 90,000 cameras so that makes it funnn too.

when in college if i have learned anything its that high schools over leave the shit behind and that you drink for the stupid reasons. Tuesday if you didnt know it was National Talk Like A Pirate Day so me and about 15 other kids got the bright idea to get dressed up as a pirate and get drunk. in hindsight it was the stupidest reason to get drunk but fuck we had the best time in the world. eveyone started to go to bed at 330 but me and bill (basically my long lost brother here) were determind to finish the rest of the beer and liqure stayed up till 6 in the morining watching skate videos. amazing times. i wish i could put the pics up but i dont have alycia around anymore to do that so yea if somone wants to tell me how to then that would be nice. what else oh and i wanna put my photography class pics up i like them a lot.

Aside from school work and hanging out i have started many side projects here, like daily trips the one of the worlds largest fucking salvation Army and buying pointless shit. this is where we purceshed our costums there. late night trips to burger king wit Bobie lynn and erin is like every night now. and my favortie is that i have finally started a band up here. well its not really a band its only me and bill but its awsome. were a grindcore band and we make all the music on the computer. were called A.S.S. bassically means Animal Seman Surprise (new album droppen soon) hahahaha well what else.

I miss my Bicycle......A LOT. i need that shit to keep me sane. but thats not the only thing that i miss
-i miss my friends sooooo much, all the kids i grew up wit and just being home driving around till 4 in the morning wit my bros.
-i miss my mom, shes my best friend but i just miss messing around wit her like all the jokes and stupid shit we did shes awsome
-i miss late night diner talks wit my nicole and justin. THERE ARE NO FUCKING DINERS HERE
-i miss Mike and Rob the two kids i went through every thing together Guys i dont even know what to say
-i miss JERSEY over all
-xo
p.s. "i would never want to live my life again, not that i have no regrets, it was just hard enough the first time" -Dr. loughlin

stab wounds and bullet holes

2005-05-25T12:51:11Z

last weekend really helped me feel alot better about shit. this is what happened.......|

friday: i worked to 915 after school then went home right quick and got changed and went to mikes gf house and got mofucking drunk. mike left at like 1130 me and adrea got dominos at 1200 and ate it she passed out on the couch so i decided to leave around 130.

Saturday: woke up at like 830 in the morning and called justin to go pick up my new big screen tv for my basement that is whats up. we got that played pool to like 12. he went home cuz he was grounded. so i went and worked on elinore, and went to slayerville skatepark till 530 then my night began. 600 i went over marie-claires and steve and jp and others came over too we packed up and headed out to the GATES OF HELL. that shit was awsome ti was so cool. it was down pouring outside and lightingso it added some fear to it. we all forgot flash lights excpet a little dinky piece of crap one. it was creepy all around. as soon as u enter the fucking thing it goes pitch black its so intimadating. we walked down and got to the second chamber where it was too flooded to contunie so we turned back and of coarse i had to lead both times. it sucked because i got mad amounts of water and shit on me, oh yea there was a pile like pig intestents or some shit lying in a pool of blood, which was fucking awsoem but the blood was on the wall and it got on my fucking flanal. this made me upset. got back top westfield at liek 830 and went over kristians till 945 where i went and got drunk again at anderas house. went home and kristian came over at liek 1 in the mornign and we watched tv, ahhaah my mom came down and was like what are u doing and just went back to bed it was funny.

sunday skatepark where i saw adam osbourn who i havent seen in l;ike years and wasted the day because of the rain i fucking hate rain we were so intent on riding we pulled a sheet out from the back of my car and a show srcaper to dry the park, after much work it was done.

what else oh shit ELINORE IS BACKL I DROVBE HER LAST NIGHT, shes got two new mirrors and shit, she getting new tires today so shell be riping soon enough.-xo

p.s. chaz when do i get my shirts punk.

this will be the song to wright the wrongs, that never gets played

2005-05-19T03:27:45Z

if this the wright thing why do i feel so empty and alone? if it was suposed to end like this why does it hurt so much. ive never felt so alone in my life, even with all my freinds around i still feel outside. i need someone to listen to me to pick me back up. when you turn your music louder to drowned out ur thoughts then you know what im talking about. i have never wanted to call her as much as i do right now but i cant. i screwed up and cant change to past so i need to look to the future i guess. i need to scream i need to get this out of me but its like i cant. i couldnt tell u who my friends are because in my eyes i only had one that ment the world to me. i know that i dont know and will probly will never know whats wrong wit me for letting this go ut i guess a freinds inpute is more important. i need my freinds and i dont think they are there i need my family and they dont care so whos left. i have nothing and mean nothing to anyone...-xo</3 Because it has too, because I'm not OK I've been dying of love but what I wanted was life "Dust has become fire's norm" and it eats me alive We burnt our wings in a world ablaze We burnt our wings to the sky and felt back in a world ablaze

that night i lied

2005-05-12T02:34:45Z

i was going to rant and rave how everyone should die and they should dont get me wrong, just fucking go away that ill i have to say everyone has screwed me over so many times that u now give up. u dont liek me fine dont call me, u dont like my opion dont ask it. so yea im sick of always taking the beating with shit, even after i cut allt he bullshit out of my life it still still FUCKING finds a way to bite me in the ass. this is wat happens when every one screws u over u become cold calluos and hateful. im all those and more now im not emo that shit is stupid im just fed up wit everyone. i lost to many freinds to many memories to this shit i need real people in my life not people who are just going to waste it. and another thing dont waste my time by calling me and like leaving 15 mins later thats fucked up. and one more dont PRETEND EVERYTHING IS OK.

teh biggest let down its the prom i now need a date that isnt going to be fuked up and ditch me. so if anyone wants to go tell me because i was just going to calla escort service or a striper and do that. but yea im fun ull have a good time and such, just be posi.

Amir lets pratice and shit i need to sing man-XO

With the guilt wrapped around our necks That`s right I just stopped what I didn`t start I missed the chance that will never come Better to regret what I have done I`d give anything just to forget A smile so worthwhile But you can only rent it My hands are open

concrete HURTS ALOT

2005-04-27T16:16:36Z

So sunday i got to good idea to like go and ride like every other day. so me and chaz go and like ride i go into the park and sit at the bowl like usaul but his is were it goes all wrong. on my frist run i fucking fell on hte first trick it hurt alot. i slamed my head and shit flat bottom. i got up and got out ot the bowl where i immediataly started to puke and like scream. i felt like shit so i layed down in my car i still felt like shit so i drove home and to the hospital. trust medrivingand puking on the parkway sucks. so i go and get checked out and shitso right now i got concused, seperated sholder, 3 bruised ribs, chipped elbow, brusied organ/ internal bleeding, and back is sore. i slamed my head so hard hat i got a bruise trough the helmet.
so i was bored yesterday i was board so guess what i did,....I WENT RIDING hahahah i dont think that it was the smartest thing but it was funnnnnnn.

when the locusts come

2005-04-22T12:50:09Z

i dont even know any more, after i qui the band tuesday, then seth quit yesterday idk i think that its funny. we both quit for hte same reson. like people have been like saying to me u finaly quit that took to long. well i finaly see that now. i dont need to take any one shit that is going to bring me down. i want to live my life and such. that is what i hve been dong nwo me and chaz have been going to sayerville skatepark everyday since sunday other then days with work its been rad too.
were going tonight to meet up wit all the kids that used to ride and have a big jam contest. it should fuckig rock the cock. what esle ALYCIA is LEAVEING me for like a weeka nd gong to some far off land, i will miss her but i think i can survive, ahah.
anyway if anyone wants to start a band we need a gtar and bassist need sopt be good and play shit like marytar ad or black dahlia murder and anything fast.

hummm

2005-04-16T16:42:02Z

You are

What Rejected Crayon Are You?

GERRR RABBLE GEWERE: AND MORE NOISES

2005-04-11T12:47:46Z

hahha ok break was mad long and boring because no other school had off other then westfield. so i had to deal with taging along wt mike and his girlfreind w/e got drunk and got to watch music videos on the televison. so it was good by the way u shuld all cheak out thenew locust video its sick and so is pig destroyers, gravedancer shits silly. what else oh i think im kicked out of my band for lyeing or somthing yet i havent talked to anyone in my band since like week or so ago so idk how that works. what ever i dont care ill just quit i cant put up wit this every other day having to please these kids they are such cocks. and dontlet me live my life. w.e HI LYC im bored and what to know if u want to chill todya and tommrow because no more pratice YEAHHHHHHH im so happy.

pooping in school is funn

2005-04-01T13:39:24Z

im bored and yes i spelled it right dicks. recording tomrrow work today shit my life is gay, i want to go out ande play but its blah out (nothng rymed) so yes i am particapating in the I LOVE MEGAH DAY or whatever its called bitches so yes

hehe its true

2005-03-21T20:45:57Z

Which Trainspotting Character Are You?

you go nowhere in a nowhere town

2005-03-20T19:17:57Z

Well, last night was COMPLETELY AMAZING, omg i had so much fucking fun. can u say repeat of last summer which seruesly would be awsome. i cgot to see the whole old crew again like steve, seth, liz, jess, brittany, meghan, alycia, fat joe, megahn drowned,diane, randy, beth and like wow others. i even saw people i havent seen in years like steph ricca and karyan defolo. the night started off jess picked me up in the fuck bus, then we went to her house because she thought she lost 200 dollars. so we searched all over her house trying to find it then we looked int the car and it was under the seat(good job jess) then we just sat in her driveway for like 45 mins trying to figure something out to do so we drove to westfield and saw my freind randy and such then to the famous DUNKIN. everyone showed up at different times and it was dope. at the diner steve was getting ripped apart by joe and jess threw a peice of toast at him and steve went home what a bitch. yea the rest of the night just was me running aroudn from car to car. then going home around 12 going back out at like 1 and going home at 545 in the morning. it was dope.

last night i saw alycia again it was good to talk to her again. we just talked about everything and how people should keep there fucking mouths shut. half the worlds problems are because people dont mind there own business. si a really big FUCK U goes out to colin. eat shit and die fucker.

what else yea i love life right now. im lonely but i have my freinds to make me forget that. i love everyone of my freinds with all my heart u guys make my life worth living. all i want to do now is go to a show and mosh for hours and my lifes complete.-XO

Our love is all that we ever had....
Our love is all that We'll ever have..
Boys and girls Guys and Dolls
You were finding faith in bathroom stalls
And broken bed springs fractured spines
Fall for the RIGHT kids at all the WRONG times

the best party around

2005-03-17T01:27:35Z

yet world inferno makes me so happy

the day the music died

2005-03-16T01:54:24Z

all things, good or bad, one day must come to a end

RULES OF LIFE

2005-03-10T19:30:25Z

101 Rules of Hardcore

1) Be tough at all times.
2) Never cheer after a show, only clap.
3) Be open minded in a "punch people" kind of way
4) Only the good hardcore bands have names that are sentences with bad grammar. Boy Hits Car, Boy Sets Fire, Skycamefalling, Boy Sets Car-fire.
5) Ankles are tough so bring your socks down into your shoes so we can see them.
6) Tattoos are tough especially when they are on your calves. See Rule 5 on how to see said tattoo more clearly.
7) Wear your hoody in the mosh pit because sweating like a wild pig makes you look tough.
8) Don't admit you listen to heavy metal.
9) (Exception to rule Only admit you listen to heavy metal if you think it is ironic and you wear 80's cheese metal shirts.)
10) Be a non-conformist, just like all your friends.
11) Practice hardcore dancing in front of your mirror and then try them out the next time Atreyu comes to town.
12) A hardcore band is only original if you call it something-core. Example Screamcore, emocore, Screamocore, mathcore, or Medio-core.
13) Remember, it's fun to punch and kick kung fu style.
14) Keep it in the do-jo.
15) Real hardcore fans are called kids.
16) Complain how hardcore bands are playing with metal bands at all costs!
17) Have your own zine, website, production company or be in a band. Claim you are friends with the singer from Shai Hulud.
18) Tell people you work in the music industry.
19) More Ankles people!
20) Embrace everybody in the scene except for those people who are not you.
21) Refer to bands as old school or new school then act tough again.
22) Pretend that you get Dillinger Escape plan.
23) Shop at second hand stores and then go buy expensive shoes.
24) Beat people up and then go to bible study class.
25) Smoking and drinking and having sex before marriage is too trendy. Real hardcore tough guys abstain.
26) Whatever you do, don't let the singer on stage ever sing in the mic. Make sure you grab it from him and sing in it yourself, after all, you do a better job singing then him. It's a wonder they didn't put you on the album.
27) Start your own hardcore band.
28) Have your logo resemble some random 80's product for nostalgia.
29) Talk about the scene any chance you get. Say as many obscure hardcore bands from NJ as possible.
30) If you are shy start an emo band so you don't have to look at the audience.
31) People who know more bands than you are better than you.
32) Add the Letter X before and after important words. XhardcorekidX XmoshfuckX
33) Never say "Did you hear the new Strung Out?" Unless you are attempting to be funny in which case stop it because hardcore kids are tough not funny.
34) It's merch not Merchandise.
35) Hardcore girls must wear head bands at all times.
36) Stretch your ears out to look more intimidating.
37) The bigger you stretch you ears out the more hardcore you are.
38) Your ear should be stretched out enough to accommodate a block of wood, a hubcap or a penis.
39) People in the front row are best used as a ladder/staircase to reach your goal... steal the mic away from the singer.
40) When people ask you if you like a band always say "I only like the old stuff" or "I haven't really gotten into the new stuff."
41) Buy all of that bands merch.
42) Wear your new merch at the next hardcore show.
43) Repeat steps 41 and 42
44) If you have to wear glasses make sure they are thick, black framed ones.
45) Don't tell anybody but make sure you try on your new vintage clothes and stud belt before heading out to see Poison the well.
46) Never admit you don't like Hatebreed and go see them live 12 times a year.
47) Complain that they are playing with Slayer but don't admit you actually like Slayer.
48) Complain at all costs.
49) Tag team hardcore dancing is cool
50) Real hardcore kids are really struggling photographers.
51) You don't go to hardcore concerts, you go to hardcore shows. BIG difference.
52) Name your hardcore dance moves things like "The mother fuck" or "kick that guys ass move" or better yet... stay home and cry.
53) Protect your body from swinging limbs by sacrificing your two arms.
54) Scream about love.
55) All age venues are important so you are not tempted to drink.
56) Claim you know a guy who knows a guy whose best friend was standing next to the guy who got his ass kicked during Converge. Bash the hardcore scene and then go see The Get Up Kids.
57) Anytime somebody mentions a band always say you know somebody in the band.
58) Wear your pins with honour! Shai Hulud, American Nightmare, Minor Threat and the purple heart of valour.
59) Velcro shoes are cool.
60) Don't admit that you have a crush on the singer from Walls of Jericho. If somebody asks, say you respect her as a musician only.
61) Your band name should contain one of the following words: Blood, Murder, Kill, Victim and butterfly.
62) Print your band name as if it was on a bad printing press. Actual graphics are for posers.
63) Sleep on a portrait painted prettier then everyone.
64) 100 bands from around the world to play in your city. All of them are the world's best hardcore bands. Every label represented, every hardcore genre present. The venue is the best all-ages venue in the world. Tickets are $1.00. It is your job to go around saying the festival should be free.
65) Record producers must make sure to pump the mid because mid is tough.
66) Re-issue your demos after every album.
67) When the band starts playing everybody join hands and make a big circle so we can watch the big kids play.
68) Crying on stage makes you a professional.
69) Complain some more.
70) Album covers must be made at home on Photoshop by your good friend.
71) If you are from New York NEVER smile in a promo pic. In fact always try to cross your arms and look into the camera as if you are going to beat up whom ever is looking.
72) If you are from New Jersey NEVER smile in a promo pic either. In fact try to look like you just lost your girl friend to the hardcore band from New York.
73) Never admit that Emo is Country music lyrics mixed with pop rock riffs and marketed by 17 year olds trying to make their friend be the next Dashboard Confessional.
74) American Idol is your worst enemy. (But you voted for Ruben)
75) You can get away with glitter on your face as long as your stretched ear plugs are clear.
76) Fuck beer, Got breast milk?
77) Bandanas are cool.
78) Bandanas with big X on them are cooler.
79) Bandanas with big X on them were cool last week you poser.
80) Your best friend is a guy named XattackX from Jersey who you chat with on MSN everyday. He is coming to see you one day. Really.
81) Chunky breakdowns in your songs are original and you should continue to do them despite every other band doing them which is clearly a rip off of your band.
82) Judge other bands and always compare them to the socio-cultural effects of the band Integrity.
83) Look up Socio-cultural in the dictionary and then get offended.
84) Green Day is the real reason you are still alive.
85) Describe your group of friends as "the scene" and then watch bootlegs of last weeks
86) Obey the laws of the hardcore scene or forever be banished from the circle.
87) When somebody asks you what is hardcore respond with "I am hardcore" then punch somebody in the face for looking at you wrong.
88) Keep punching
89) Kick a little too
90) Punch
91) Add a threat about their mother for good measure.
92) Pretend you are won the fight then pickup your dismembered left arm.
93) You are wearing the same thing as the 40-year old gas pump attendant but for some strange mystical reason you are cooler than he is.
94) Tell everybody that Trustkill Records are too trendy.
95) Did you stop acting tough? I saw you hug that teddy bear.
96) Pierce you tits and tattoo your body.
97) Straight bangs means straight-edge
98) Being vegan means you can't swallow sperm.
99) When in doubt Mock everything
100) Take everything personally.
101) Assume this list is about you.

FUCK FUCK FUCK

2005-03-09T13:58:47Z

FUCK FUCK FUYCIFULKYFLSKDPUKHRLIHSSHDFLKJFSHLKSDKLSJDSL I HATE BEING SICK RABLE RABLE RABLE RABLEVVVVRABLERABLERABLERABLERABLERABLERABLERABLERABLERABLERABLE RABLERABLE RABLE RABLE RABLE RABLERABLE RABLERABLE RABLE RABLE RABLE RABLE RABLE RABLE RABLE ok that enough rabling so yea i have had tonilites for the last like 5 days and shit sucks i love my gf so much for getting me sick thanks lyc. fuck this is the most pain iu have been in a while oh but the pain killers are mad fun thats all i gots to say.

now for everything else i have to do a project on a writer or singer i was going to who else then WES EISOLD becuse he is GOD does anyone else know a good writer or song wirter who is worth researching

true face of panic

2005-03-01T01:53:48Z

well well well..... i havent really been updating latly cuz im lazy, but a lot has happend like wow amounts and im going to tell u about it.

where should i start, oh yea last wendsay i broke up wit alycia after like 9 months, then on thursday i got the stomach virus, maybe it was a sign or somthing, but then friday morning i called her and we got back together after much harshment from others. YEA that fucking annoyed me like i was doing something on my own terms like me and her wree having our own problems and we had to deal with them but then other people seem to have to put there 2 cents in about the situation telling me what i should do, or what they would do. well there not me and im not them they dont know what was going on and ididnt ask for ther help so eatshit or somthing. and dont give me the shit oh i was trying to help cuz once again i didnt ask. i mean i dont barge into your lifes and force my opion on u cuz u wouldnt like it or apprecatie it, so i dont expect it back. idk there are a lot of fake melodramatic people in to world who like to bath in others problems well im finally starting to figure out who that is.... the truth is i love alycia and were together thats that.

what else well why im ranting im going to go one to another topic (ur all going to hate me but i dont care cuz im a asshole. people keep complaining oh this person doesnt like me or that im losing touch with this person, well u know what that is so childish. fucking people these days if someone doesnt like u or if u know someone doesnt liek u, you should stand up and talk to them not be a emo person and like get all dramtic liekt they dont like u because that stupid, if a freindship is ment to be you can talk about it not try to drag it out for socail status that is so stupid. fucking ur like serusly grow up and face your problems. on the other topic if u see ur losing touch wit a person make a effort to call them or talk to them them do be lazy and let them slip away ecause then u arent a good freind and worth of there freindship obvously. so yea in general people have to start to grow up and deal wit there lifes and not be all emo thats my opion and i dotn care if u like it or not.

wow i feel so muchj better right now. hahahhahahahahah damn well its snowing and i dont think were going to have school tommrow because i said so.

oh yea is it a bad thing if when u refuse to get a cup for ice cream because u rather eat it out of the contaiter, and ur mother says she will break ur knee caps wit a lead pipe do u think that shes mad at me or that she still loves me. my moms crazy, i think thats were i get it from... well latere-xo